Well, I certainly got right to it today! Last night, as I was in bed with a migraine and watching The Biggest Loser, I felt that familiar nudge from the Holy Spirit:
You said you wanted motivation. You said you wanted to exercise more, and work at eating healthy.
Sigh-I did say that, didn't I? Why are the things in life that are the most rewarding sometimes the hardest? There are only three times in my life when I was at a decent weight (or smaller). The first was in high school when I was toying with not eating. The other two were when I did Weight Watchers. I like the idea of Weight Watchers, but don't have the time for the meetings nor the money to go.
When I woke up this morning, my migraine was gone and I had a new resolve. I could do this. I did some app searching, first going to the familiar sparkpeople.com, but it didn't feel right. Later today, a friend reminded me about myfitnesspal.com, and so I went back to it while A was in gymnastics. I love it. I am not sure if it is because it is something new or if it is because it's an awesome site (more on that as I use it), but I do like it. I love the ability to track what I eat, when I work out, AND IT IS FREE!
I also got my first workout in. I dusted off my gym membership, and hit the treadmill. Unfortunately, I didn't go to my normal location, and the one I was at was in less than stellar condition. I was so grossed out by the sticky handles on the treadmill, that I could only endure about 11 minutes-but it's a start, right? I really am planning to work at slowly increasing-I want to be road ready for Dirty Girl this year!
Something else that has given me hope? Friends! I have a great support system this time, and that makes all the difference.
I am trying to be more open about what I am doing this time. This is a huge change for me. I have never been comfortable sharing when it comes to changes like this because there is that inner voice saying, "what if you fail?" Well, to that I say, so what if I do fail? I will get up and start all over again!